I'll Find Strength In Pain
Within the fragile substance of my soul.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Thursday, August 25, 2011
It's amazing what can happen in such a sort period of time.
Since my last post, I've gone camping, went to a birthday party, hung out with Moroni and Aaron at least 167,982 times, said goodbye to my sister and more recently, went to a bonfire. And by recently, I mean, today.
It was a lot of fun. Lindsay and Lizzie were there, so I talked to them for a bit. Josh (my ex) was there, too, but I didn't talk to him. I convinced John and Lindsay to go in the water with me. They said it was cold, but I found it to be rather...perfect. I spent most of the time talking to Matt, Linsday, John, Momma, Sydney, Matt and Alyssa. I also ran into Aaron W. and Shane. Evan wasn't there, which bummed menout a little. Jocelyn wasn't there either, which only upset me even more. Yeah, I was about to cuddle with someone, but then I had to leave. Oh well, still had a blast.
It was a lot of fun. Lindsay and Lizzie were there, so I talked to them for a bit. Josh (my ex) was there, too, but I didn't talk to him. I convinced John and Lindsay to go in the water with me. They said it was cold, but I found it to be rather...perfect. I spent most of the time talking to Matt, Linsday, John, Momma, Sydney, Matt and Alyssa. I also ran into Aaron W. and Shane. Evan wasn't there, which bummed menout a little. Jocelyn wasn't there either, which only upset me even more. Yeah, I was about to cuddle with someone, but then I had to leave. Oh well, still had a blast.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
As much as I love my parents, I'm not going to raise my kids like they raised me.
Unlike my mom, I'm going to be patient, kind, loving, forgiving, understanding and I'm going to show my kids I love them each and everyday. I'm going to play with my kids, read them stories or sing to them each night, love them equally, put them in the activity of their choice (after they play baseball and join ballet), and have a strong relationship with all my children. I don't want them to be raised like I was. I don't want them to go through the horrible things I've gone through. I don't want my future family to be broken like my [current] family is. I just don't want my children question whether or not their parents love them or not and want to come home at the end of the day.
Just a few moments ago, my mom yelled at my little brother for accidentally unplugging the television, which stopped her shows from recording. After being confronted by my mom, he hid in the garage and cried until I (later joined by my sister) went to comfort him.
After talking to my siblings, I went to finish packing for my trip. While I was heading back to my room, my mom (indirectly) told me very angrily that all the shows stopped recording and how it interrupted her "very important" baseball game and so on and so forth. I calmly explained to her that her son is a little more important than a silly T.V. show and that it was my fault Adam [my brother] unplugged the T.V. She, as always, shook her head and said nothing.
My mom is a strong, courageous woman, but she is also very short tempered, hypocritical, selfish, demanding and stubborn. She puts her wants and needs before anyone else's and isn't afraid to speak her mind. Which, can be a good and bad thing, depending on what it is she's saying.
I am very grateful for everything my mom's done for me and my family and the sacrifices she's made for everyone. I'm thankful for the things she's taught me; I have learned from her mistakes. It's because of her that I know how to raise my children, and I am very thankful for that. Think about it.
Just a few moments ago, my mom yelled at my little brother for accidentally unplugging the television, which stopped her shows from recording. After being confronted by my mom, he hid in the garage and cried until I (later joined by my sister) went to comfort him.
After talking to my siblings, I went to finish packing for my trip. While I was heading back to my room, my mom (indirectly) told me very angrily that all the shows stopped recording and how it interrupted her "very important" baseball game and so on and so forth. I calmly explained to her that her son is a little more important than a silly T.V. show and that it was my fault Adam [my brother] unplugged the T.V. She, as always, shook her head and said nothing.
My mom is a strong, courageous woman, but she is also very short tempered, hypocritical, selfish, demanding and stubborn. She puts her wants and needs before anyone else's and isn't afraid to speak her mind. Which, can be a good and bad thing, depending on what it is she's saying.
I am very grateful for everything my mom's done for me and my family and the sacrifices she's made for everyone. I'm thankful for the things she's taught me; I have learned from her mistakes. It's because of her that I know how to raise my children, and I am very thankful for that. Think about it.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
These past 24 hours of my life have been amazing. Here's why.
Last night:
Today:
Yep. That's about it. A lot of stuff happened in-between, but I'll spare you the details.
Tomorrow, I'm going to have breakfast at my cousin's house 'cause he's leaving for basic training (for the Army). Going to be an interesting day.
Goodnight!
- Mario Kart competition
- Walked to the liquor store to buy some ice cream (ran into a number of older men who were drunk and...need I say more?)
- Had pizza and ice cream for dinner (yum!)
- Watched Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
- Watched Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone again
- Watched Mulan
- Painted my nails while watching HP1x2 (a few hiccups, but they look pretty cool!)
- Cuddled
- Fell asleep around 3-4
Today:
- Woke up at eight and had cold pizza for dinner (my favorite)
- Watched Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
- Hung out til 1-ish then went to the U.S. Open
- Ran into a lot of people I know and people I'm glad I don't know
- Watched the Women's Junior Final in the V.I.P. section (thanks to Sam!!)
- Waited in line for 30 minutes to go to the bathroom
- Saw this amateur band open for MGMT
- Watched MGMT or free!! (Seperate post will be made with more details.)
- Was going to go to a party, but decided not to 'cause I'm way too tired.
Yep. That's about it. A lot of stuff happened in-between, but I'll spare you the details.
Tomorrow, I'm going to have breakfast at my cousin's house 'cause he's leaving for basic training (for the Army). Going to be an interesting day.
Goodnight!
Plan of Attack - August 6th, 2011
- Go out for lunch
- Go to the U.S. Open
- Watch the MGMT concert
- Possibly go to parry
- Go home :/
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